i want to say what ive been going through. well ive been seeing therpists,consolers and ppl that need to talk to for years but none of them helped until i met this one guy who is a consoler and he knew what he was talking about and i began seeing him for months finally i was happy someone might help me i told him stuff i could never ever tell anybody, some of the stuff were emberassing and he helped me become comfertable i was kinda happy until last week my mother called him up becuz she was worried about the way i was acting at the time. i was mad,annoyed and sleeping all the time. so she called him up a couple of times and finally got a hold of him and she told him what was happening and when she said she couldnt find his number she wrote down. he just bursted out laughing at my mom becuz she lost his number. WTF? is so funny about that??. any way he contiuned to laugh hard ass hell at her and my mom was trying to talk to him and she asked why didnt he call her right back when he got her message he said will call her when ever he wants to with an attutde and said to my mom why cant she rember his number and he said to her just to put patrick in the hospital then. ok i trusted this guy he said from day 1 he will not give up on me and if i had a problem i can call whenever i want. but then he laughs at my mom? and tells her to put me in the hospital? he gave up on me. he was a nice cool ass guy. and he treated my mom like shit on the phone. ok so while all this was going i had no idea what was happening upstairs becuz i was in the basement and then i heard cries and i run upstairs and my mom was lying in bed crying so bad and my bro and step dad where trying to keep her calm bcuz my consoler betreyed us and that crushed us becuz the way he was acting on the phone was completley unprofessional and waaaaaay out of charater. i trusted him i never throught in a million fuckin years he would act like that. after years of seeing ppl and then finding a person that was actually helping and and soo trust worthy he acts like a jackass,now i idk if i can trust another terpist or consoler again. my mother and my step dad said that my consoler sounded high on the phone. IF so then wow very unprofessnal. i feel alone and betrayed. i am lost once again……..i wish somebody would pull me out of this darkness and into the light…..or else im f*cked for the rest of my life…….