Ignore the smoke, cause there is no sign. Fires burning me away and I can't wait for my end. The day I meet my maker I'm going to knock his fucking teeth out of his head. More than a billion people on this planet and it's all non-sensical. Why do some suffer while others don't? And why is it always reversed? Decent people, good people live in poverty and suffer in a state of poor and hopeless their whole life. While super pricks and bitches get born into mass wealth. One could claim that the roots lead to the growth but does where one begins truly dictates where one ends? I somehow don't think this is entirely true, I think it's merely a guide line. We can follow it or take our own route, which we choose though does decide what we become. I've chosen no route though, after years of making 'choices' I've realized everything will make me miserable. I tend to have a habit of always making the wrong choice, choosing to try love I get hurt but to abandon it I hurt too. Choosing to try I realize I fail and wasted the time, but to not try I end up feeling like nothing. In the end I lose and feel like a waste of life, or I don't try and just feel like the waste. Failure and Waste, the two words best describing me… the only words. Am I really dramatizing it? Or do people say that just because they can't accept what I am? Are people really in such denial due to todays bullshit plastic manner that they cannot accept that some people just don't belong? So many people are handed chances and get lucky breaks, I think I could not have worse luck and get fewer chances, since there is nothing fewer and zero… fuck this world.
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Been a good day
T2006ALA, , Depression, Anger, Child, Divorce, Relationships, 0
The ex husband and his son came to visit my daughter and we have had a pretty good day...
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Decent Day or Fluke?
sadviolinist, , Depression, Career, Schizophrenia, Sleep Disorders, Therapist, 1
Calmer tonight than I've been in days. I'm grateful for that. Seeing the psychiatrist yesterday and my therapist today...
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Its Thanksgiving….
TearsOfAnAngel, , Depression, Child, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, Weight Loss, 1
and what I am thankful for, is that I had an amazing mother, who was 1st my mother, and...
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Lots!!!
pinksparkles, , Depression, Relationships, 0
i havent blogged for a little while as been having trouble getting my words in the right order to explain what...
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Forgiveness in Light of Abuse
elf, , Depression, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Relationships, Suicide, Therapy, 0
Again I wish I could select multiple moods or elaborate on the "other". I am light headed as I...
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Yesterday I went to lake and today I went to the river
Dayisdone, , Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, 0
I went alone again of course. I do have some people that offer to be with me to go. ...
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Body Shudders, Lungs of Ice
sosgirl, , Depression, Depression, OCD, 0
Have to write this down quick, the words are already dripping away. My arm is healing, but my skull...
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Seven Layers of Hell
CivilSouvenir, , Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, Anger, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Emotional Abuse, PTSD, Relationships, Religion, Sexual Abuse, 0
He’s telling everyone I was abused as a child (which is not true). And he is telling everyone that...
Too Right.Bless you–Keep Moaning-Vic