I have been through a lot this past 2 years. I have dealt with people using me for my body,  in and out of hospitals, a cop telling me that he doesn’t believe I would kill myself and me ODing (only to black out) to prove a point to an officer telling me that he doesn’t believe I would kill myself and my parents getting a divorce and me being in the middle of it all.

I have been feeling lonely for months. I stopped talking to who I thought was my best friend, I mean best friends are supposed to tell each other everything and I always had to pry to get things out of her. So I don’t talk to her anymore.  My parents don’t understand what I am going through I rely on medication to keep me sane because my mood disorder because it is so bad.  I am always alone call mom my parents work all the time when my mom needs a break for me she sends me to my dads house. It feels like I have no one no one wants me. I find myself sometimes crying randomly and then after I’m done crying I figure out it’s because I have no one.  My last ex was someone I would txt and we would talk for hours and then he said to me that he couldn’t be with me cuz he was in love with someone else. And ever since then I have been talking to random ppl trying to find that person and they just try to get my nudes.

I just want to find someone that won’t be like anyone else. Someone that sees me for who I am and not what I look like on the outside.