Been living with my girlfriend and 4 yr old boy for 6 years and my darling girlfriend has had deppression on and off for the past four years, i havent dealt with it at all despite many chances i keep molly coddling her, trying to stay close in a way, and ultimately i have pushed her away she told me three days ago she no longer loved me and my whole world fell apart i’m trying to be strong for my boy but i feel sometimes that i’m losing the plot we had a counciling session yesterday and it was good she said she was willing to try albeit for our son and not for us all, we both learned a bit, but she cant touch me at all or even look at me sometimes i just want to hug her and for her to hug me back, tell her that im here for her. She is just a shell and really quite ill and i’m on the edge of breaking down all the time, we have a lot of finacial problems because of ressession i lost my business last year and because of that i have nowhere to go so she can have space and see her every day lie next to her every night and every day i spend without her by my side i am dying inside, i think about her constantly my only crime is that i loved her to much, the worse she got the more love i tryed to give her and the deeper her depression became if theres anyone out there who has gone thruogh something like this please help because the only future i can see is one where i end up on my own getting access to my son when i can failing miserably to get over what i thought was my soulmate. For everyones sake i hope she sees the light and one day we can be together in love again,thinking of the alternative puts me in a very dark and overwhelmingly lonely place.
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you have been an amazing support for her and its hard to live with depression , on either side. Im sorry how things are for you and really hope you can work things out. Please use this site for support as everyone here is so kind and thoughtful, i really wish you well and your young son, take care , sue xx
Thanks its nice to hear that from a stranger lets you know that there is some good people out there, I agree but theres always a part of me that ties up in knots that gut feeling you get when somethings really wrong when i hear the alternative to a happy life together, almost like a locked door in my head that diverts me to a bleak future and all that comes with it, i have fallen completey for her more so over the years and i”m constantly in pain inside never felt anything like this in my life before.
thnk you i”m touched and I know your right, i know i can be there for my boy but without her just feels all wrong, i know and love her so much but not when shes so ill, watching her its like theres two people fighting in one body, one is my sweet girlfriend and the other is so sad and helpless it cuts me up, until she looks me in the eye again and returns my feelings, i feel i can never be whole again.