Work wasn't so bad. It actually went by pretty quick, and I was actually early to work, so it wasn't too bad. I had to watch a few videos for training though, so that sucked because I was already working on things when they pulled me away to watch the videos, but whatever. The rest was work was enjoyable.

Home is a different story though…me and my boyfriend got into an argument (surprise, surprise). It started out over something extremely stupid and he was the one who actually kept pushing and pushing it and kept bringing stuff up to argue about. And now he's giving me the silent treatment. Basically since I've start my job he's been more clingy then usual, and more lazy then usual. I'm gone from the house from 5am to 6 or 6:30pm, so when I get home the only thing I want to do is sit back and relax. What does he want to do? Have me make him something to eat, clean, spend time with him whenever he wants it. I sat down and watched a movie with him (ghostbusters 2; good movie). About 20 minutes in I went to cook something (hadn't eaten all day), I came back and he starts playing on the Wii. So I get on the computer, then at about 8pm he stops playing and wants to go do soemthing because he's apparently bored. I told him to think of something and if it's not too much energy I'll think of doing whatever it is with him. He said "I'm bored. Think of something for us to do."

I told him that I'm tired and worn out from work. He then began to throw magazines at the door. I asked him if he was finished throwing a tantrum and he continued to throw magazines. Then about 10 minutes later he got literally less then an inch from my face and asked if I was going to spend all night on the computer. I told him I don't know, but I just want to relax since I still have to work again tomorrow. He then got angry and said "Fine, then I'll just give you the whole night to yourself!" And stormed out of the room. I probably could have handled the next thing better, but I didn't. I followed him to the door and started yelling, saying that when it comes to attention it's always on his time, that I'm not going to drop everything to give him attention when he never gives me attention when I ask for it. And that also I wasn't going to go out and do whatever because I've been working all day while he's been sitting at home all day playing video games. He then responded by saying "I payed rent today and cleaned the room. I didn't just do nothing all day."

He took our money from the bank and gave it to his mom…not too difficult. Also, he cleaned the room, I do that almost every day. But his big thing was that he had a temp. job last night (restocking Walmart, he worked from 9pm-1am). I reminded him that I had done the exact same job that he did multiple times and still woke up early and basically catered to him while he wasn't even attempting to work.

Is me asking for a bit of quiet time when I get home from a long work day too much to ask for? Am I honestly asking for too much? He would demand the same thing when he worked less hours then me. He'd come home and I'd want there to be an attention fest and I'd make him dinner and he'd get all pissy when I didn't just let him sit and play video games or be on his computer. Am I really asking for something bad? Being gone from the house for 13 hours and just wanting to come home and relax and unwind, is that something bad to ask for? I only work 4 days a week, he had the remaining 3 days to spend as much time with me as he wants. Because on the days that I work I come home a little after 6pm and I make sure that I'm in bed by 10pm, that's 4 hours that I'm awake at home during work days. I cook and clean when I get home which takes about an hour. I get everything ready for tomorrow and that takes about another hour and then I make sure I spend some time with him and then the rest of the time is my time to unwind and relax.

Am I not showing him enough attention? He used to always say whenever I'd complain about him not showing me attention "We share the same bed, that's about 8 hours I'm spending with you none stop." I find it funny how he does things and I complain about it and he gets all pissy about it. Then the roles get reversed and he starts to complain and everything, but for some reason he refuses to admit that it's the same. I've brought it to his attention before and he just says "It's not the same. All you do is whine and complain about everything. I'm telling you things that are valid." Sometimes I honestly just want to pop him one good one…a bad thought, I know, but it's the truth. I'm not going to but that's just how I feel.

What's better is that now he's telling me that he wasn't doing all of that to get my attention, he was doing that because he wanted to tell me something, and now he's refusing to tell me what it was, but he's still very upset about the whole thing…God tonight is going to be fun, especially since I have about 5 minutes until I'm supposed to go to bed…looks like I'll be drinking LOTS of coffee tomorrow.

I seriously hate my life right now.