Today didnt start of so good. I kept waking up on & off during the night with a head ache. I kept taking my pain pills hoping that it would help but it wasnt until i actually got up that it finally subsided. I went about doing what i needed to do for the day and finally had a chance to sit down and watch a minister that i have been recording for the last week "Creflo Dollar". In listening to his sermon it was like a light bulb went off in my head. Now what I had heard wasnt something that I had heard before but for some reason this time i really heard what was being said. The sermon was about prosperity and how God wants us to have it but that i had been thinking as prosperity only being financially but found out that it meant in every area of my life and how i needed to change my way of thinking. It was kinda a confirmation for me as well cause i had already made up in my mind that I was going to make some changes in my life such as: Nov. 30 will be my last day of smoking cigarettes, and starting Dec. 1i was going to start walking everyday that the weather premits also that i was going to stop faking about how i feel or what i want. 2013 is going to be about Traci and living! I made a promise to myself that I am going to live life as God intended me to and that i was going to be grateful, thankful and going to stop complaining. I feel it cant be worst then the way that it has been it could only be better. I will continue to keep you updated on my progress. pls pray for me!