Possible Child, if you are growing inside of me then this is for you. I promise I will always love you. I will take care of myself so I can take care of you. Everyday you will be the reason I keep going, you will be what makes me strong and you will be the reason I drive myself to do my best and succeed. I will be there for you always and take care of you. I will listen and advise. i will protect but let you discover. I will not let anyone hurt you, I will teach you life's lessons, but let you learn yourself when it is needed. If you are hurt I will kiss it better, if you are sad I will make you happy. As you grow I will be sad because you are leaving but I will be proud because of who you have become and how far you have come. My arms are open as is my heart, and when you need me I will always be here. I understand you must grow and be off on your own, but if you ever need your mother, I will always be your home.

I just felt like writing this, I was thinking about what I would do if I ended up being pregnant. I will admit I still don't really think I am, just am a little suspicious, but it might be possible so.. if I do have a life inside of me I will live for it and I will love it. My boyfriend and I, long ago, were talking about our future together and we decided when we were around 30 or so we would have a child if we were settled down, and we both want a girl so we picked out a name back then and so IF I do end up being pregnant and this baby is a girl we would name her Caitlynn. Since that was already planned it was okay to say but we aren't planning names or anything since we don't even know if i am pregnant. Hoping I'm not…I'll take a test on the 30th and hopefully the plus sign is not the outcome….I'm praying it isn't. I want to be older and in a better situation when I have a baby. Wish me luck guys… <3