I hate the way you look at me.
I hate the way you talk to me.
I hate that you always know my feelings.
I hate that you try to understand me.
I hate the way you over protect me.
I hate the way you stand by me.
I hate the way you hold me.
It's not fair the way you know me by heart.
It's not what I want to love you anymore.
It's not at all something you could understand,
At least these are things that you would get,
If you tried just once to get inside my head.
If only you could see things in my head.
Or hear me calling to you inside.
Then again..
You yelled at me that I was just like him.
I'm not like him and never will be.
You don't understand all that pain from him.
So do not go saying that I'm like him.
I am nothing like him.
I didn't leave you alone.
I didn't leave you in the dust.
You just didnt get me.
Now here's the thing:
Most of all I hate that I love you.
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