my friend got back from his education so we´ve been playing alot spend time together for the past week or 2. his girlfriend just got back today, we still usually spend time together and play but there is always her in my place and i always feel obligated to entertain everybody who iv have in my place, if i dont i feel like a jerk. i know my friend is a bit of a jerk also, but in a small time you dont choose your friend you grow up with them. i usually am the one paying all the food and drinks, and always feel bad when givin anything. i am completly stuck with my life right now, with no directions to go. any education i want to go to i feel confident, but i cant handle people. music used to help alot with shut off from it but now feels i cant be around people. i want to get a job but always feel ignored or thrown out when i give aplications, i want to meet new people or get a girlfriend but i cant stand people. people always say "just talk to people" or "go to a place and be around" i feel so bad when i am around, and sometimes when it gets worse i feel murderous or too observent of predicting people thinking that they might be like that. i know that i dont know people completly but people always judge quickly, me too. i cant stand the new age shit, there is so much me me me. so many abandamment issues that they use social sites or cheap clothes trying to get so much attention i cant stand outside. and to meet people i know, been such a dissapointment of life i try my best to avoid them. iv got so many problems and this is the only place i let a little out, never to my familie or friends. in my world no one is close enough to talk about problems, or they drink alcohol and pour feelings out. i never get drunk, if i am in a party wich is about once or twice a year i drink maybe 1 or 3 drinks. i always hated people being drunk bec of my parents, and bec of that i am shut off from my town. this country is running on alcohol and i would do anything to but a fucking bullet to the brains on them or myself to get this misery off.
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Tempted to throw it all away
naomijane, , Depression, Anxiety, Career, Sleep Disorders, Therapy, 0
I've had a day from hell!! i managed to force myself to work this morning, but unfortunately after very...
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Yep. Get out there and enjoy life!
deidrexx, , Depression, Addiction, Depression, Infidelity, Lesbian, Gay, LGBTQ, 0
Sure, that is what they all tell me. Get up, get out, join something DO something. Stop feeling sorry...
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“And, all the kings horses and all the kings yen, couldn''t stop the abra cadabra that invites these men.” – Mason Jennings, “Bullet”
thebadkitty, , Depression, Addiction, Anxiety, Child, Depression, 2
I’m physically shaky, right now, but psychologically… I feel stronger than I have in a while. I took a...
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Of trees
feDAy87, , Depression, Depression, Medication, PTSD, Spirituality, Stress, Therapy, 0
I touched upon this subject during a conversation with other members of DT (you know who you are, thanks...
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I don't even know.
j8wk4qee, , Depression, Relationships, 1
i use you guys as my personal diary. but anyway, so, i don't even know right now. the littlest...
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Wanna go home
Tmaldo99, , Anxiety, Depression, Relationships, 0
So yesterday I had to go to my dads house and I have to stay here for a while....
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Hey wanna be friends? The quest for friends….Spoiler alert it ends baddly
shadetree, , Depression, Anxiety, Child, Grief, 1
Im not sure theres a real good way to find friends after you hit 30. But especially after you...
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Weatherman
case, , Depression, Relationships, 0
Last night I sat at the edge of my bed and debated wether or not to take an antidepressant....
i hate people too. Well let me rephrase that, I hate being AROUND people. Especially large groups of them. I hate parties because i feel socially akward. I never know what to do with my hands, or where to look…let alone what to say either….Have you ever thought about trying online classes? Some classes are set up to where you might have to video chat every blue moon with a teacher, but most classes is they post the reading material online and you submit it. I took some online classes and LOVED it.