wow my emotions,a few days ago i was like thats it,ive had enough of ocd,and life,honestly i was at the end of my tether,today i decided not to go 2 sleep in the day,to go out,take my son to playgroup(which my partner always does,as i can never face it),i had to take my daughters coat back for a refund as it was faulty,go to see the doctor ,and go clothes ans socks(where do they all disappear to?),nothing really glam,but all going outside of my 4 walls and my comfort zone.my partner gave me many chances to back out,he would take my son,but i wanted to see him have fun,well,i saw a friend there who knows i dont go out much(knows i have anxiety but were not close for her to know about my pure o,she made me a cup of tea as she knew id be nervous,my son had a whale of a time playing with everything and he was genuinely exited as i was there.we sang songs and sat in a circle,i had some ocd moments but i just accepted them and refused to send too much time analiysing them(but i did a little,cant be helped:.) ,but the most important thing is i never let them ruin my day.then,on a roll,i took my daughters coat back for a refund got it changed then went shopping,to the doctors and came home,my daughter came out of school happy,and my partner did tea,kids went to bed,and my other half(who i snapped and moaned at the whole of last week,did me a hot bath,with candles and my fave music,like i say a "normal day" for most,but a milestone for me………and i know bad times are never far away,and i can go down as well as up,but at the moment,i stick my fingers up to my ocd,its not having me just yet xxxx