wow my emotions,a few days ago i was like thats it,ive had enough of ocd,and life,honestly i was at the end of my tether,today i decided not to go 2 sleep in the day,to go out,take my son to playgroup(which my partner always does,as i can never face it),i had to take my daughters coat back for a refund as it was faulty,go to see the doctor ,and go clothes ans socks(where do they all disappear to?),nothing really glam,but all going outside of my 4 walls and my comfort zone.my partner gave me many chances to back out,he would take my son,but i wanted to see him have fun,well,i saw a friend there who knows i dont go out much(knows i have anxiety but were not close for her to know about my pure o,she made me a cup of tea as she knew id be nervous,my son had a whale of a time playing with everything and he was genuinely exited as i was there.we sang songs and sat in a circle,i had some ocd moments but i just accepted them and refused to send too much time analiysing them(but i did a little,cant be helped:.) ,but the most important thing is i never let them ruin my day.then,on a roll,i took my daughters coat back for a refund got it changed then went shopping,to the doctors and came home,my daughter came out of school happy,and my partner did tea,kids went to bed,and my other half(who i snapped and moaned at the whole of last week,did me a hot bath,with candles and my fave music,like i say a "normal day" for most,but a milestone for me………and i know bad times are never far away,and i can go down as well as up,but at the moment,i stick my fingers up to my ocd,its not having me just yet xxxx

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  1. Quest 11 years ago

    Cool posting, Pinksparkle!  For you, I hope these uplifting moments are more frequent, and the memory of them will help you continue to fight the good fight for your well-being.  Sending good wishes your way.  Quest 

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  2. bluerosie 11 years ago

     

    Brought tears to my eyes–so happy for your good day.  I know how that goes.  A "normal" day for most people is a miracle for those of us who struggle with OCD.  Even a slight change in my very uncluttered schedule sends me into a panic even as I'm telling myself, "Wait a minute; it's OK, no big deal…." 

    Making two phone calls in one day about a week ago was a huge accomplishment for me.  They were simple, routine.  Took me all of about 5 minutes to make both of them.  But took like two hours or so to prepare myself to make them.  When the good days come take a deep breath and enjoy!

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  3. fallingangel 11 years ago

    I'm happy for you\"\". I felt the same way the other day when I went to the soup kitchen-happy and accomplished. For those of us with OCD, it requires a lot of strength to do things that others probably wouldn't think twice about.

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