Ah, I hate when it comes from nowhere especially first thing when I wake up. Not fair, i don't even get a running start on it. I'm just going to blarf out everythign I'm thinking and feelig here and try to figure out where it's coming from.

1.PROUD- Last night my husband and I hung out with an old friend. We had a really good time. I was so proud of myself because 99.99% of the time I have to be the driver whenever we go somewhere, but yesterday I let my husband drive to our friend's house and let the friend drive us to our destinations!

2. PROUD- Last night I ate a full meal- steak, baked sweet potato, part of a blooming onion and two margaritas.

3. PROUD- I let myself cut loose and have some fun yesterday.

4. FRUSTRATING- Yesterday morning I thought it would be a nice treat for my neice and nephew to take them to a maple sugar house and see how it was made. The nephew bitched the whole ride up there and caused problems with his sister. The sugar house was actually just a store, they had production closed down.

5. NERVOUS AND DISTRACTING- my stomach and guts are a wreck today from eating and drinking last night.

6. NERVOUS BUT SOLVABLE- I have one klonopinleft but I guess I can call my doctor for a refill tomorrow.

7. DISTRACTING BUT INEVITABLE- I had four almagam fillings removed last week and replaced with composite and my teeth huuuuurt. I could take some Advil but I don't want to wreck my stomach further.

8. DEPRESSING- Tomorrow would have been my dog's 18th birthday.

9. WEIRD AND TROUBLING- My skin is breaking out and my earring holes are filled with goo. Does that mean I have an infection?

10. BORING BUT INEVITABLE- I'm stuck grading papers all day and it's actually 57 degrees out! I can take breaks and go outside though.

11. PROMISING- I actually feel a little better after writing this all out.