I'm not a big tech whiz or anything so this is my first blog I'm writing so I'm sure they'll gradually get better. I guess I'm using this site to vent a little, as well as talk to some people and come up with different ideas on how to beat ocd. Already this site has helped me a lot because I can see that there are lots of other people out there that have to deal with this shit! Sometimes I feel so alone, and although this is electronic I at least know I'm not like some lepper and am the only one in the world! Also a lot of you have a lot of wisdom beyond your years, a common trait I feel comes along with OCD. It really gives you a different perspective, unattached from "ego" I think. It's like we have a clearer picture of us "looking in" on situations even involving ourselves, and disassociating our personal emotions. I for one feel very desensitized towards a lot of emotions and situations. For example I can handle myself very well under pressure, even giving speeches, because I know that it's nothing compared to my intrusive ocd thoughts so I perform very well doing other things because that doesn't feel like "pressure", if you get what I'm saying. I wanted to share little bits and pieces of my mind with you all and it would be nice bantaring back and forth for whoever wants to comment back on my blog. Right now the more "tangible" thing on my mind is the fact that I'm 24 years old have no job, haven't graduated college, and really can't focus on school to well because I am housebound a lot due to obsessing as well as it's hard to keep focused on school when I constantly have to fight my demons. Wondering if anyone else had any advice for how they did it. Well you got a glimpse of how I think and how I feel, I assure you I'll write more and you can get to know me better.