Even though I slept really late (3pm) I still got a lot accomplished. My husband and I dug out our old aquarium and I cleaned it. Then we went to Lowe's for some tropical plants and vermiculite. We went to my nephew's 7th birthday party, visited with family, sat through dinner and cake, and I set up the terrarium for my nephew's pet snake. It looks really cool and he loves it! Also, oneof our friends came over to visit for a while.

This is my first day on "real food." I was so hungry last night, a hunger that would not be satisfied with just crackers, yogurt, popsicles, or bananas, which have been my food for the past two weeks. I ate a bite of hubby's pizza and it just made me hungrier. Today, I ate a BLT and a few bites of lasagna and garlic bread and then a few bites of birthday cake. So far so good on the gut front…..

I truly relish the weekends when I get to spend time with my husband. He is such a source of strength for me. He is literally and metaphorically the strongest person I have ever met. He can do anything he sets his mind to.

For the last few days I have been consciously trying to counter my feelings of wanting to be dead with those of gratitude. When I find my mind shifting away from the here and now and towards depression and hopelessness, I focus on the things I am thankful for: my family, my cat, my house, my job, this planet, Spring and Fall weather, books, this support group, etc. Even if I no longer have something, I practice gratitude for it- my parents, my dogs, times I was happy, friends I used to have, etc. I think this may be helpful for me.