It gets very frustrating when things I did before, I can't do now because of my OCD. I have had OCD for a while. But not only do I have OCD but I have thyroid issues to. I have been going to the doctor for my thyroid. Making sure the my thyroid level is normal is very important. I have also been going to see my therapist one a week. But nothing seems to help. I still have the crazy thoughts..and because I think these things I feel like I really want these things to happen.I went to the grocery store this morning. Well I started feeling like if I went into the grocery store that I wanted something bad to happen to the people in the store. Well then I try to reassure myself that I don't want that and start praying. So I force myself to go into the store. While in the store I get very anxious and upset because I feel of I look or touch anything im contaminating it. So I can hardly manage to pick up anything. Then while going through the check out line I have thoughts racing through my mind that if I give the cashier my debit card I want her to die. Or I there is someone behind me thoughts race through my mind that if I go in front of them I want something awful to happen to them. So I began to pray an hope that God knows that I really don't want all these thoughts to come true. As I get back to my car I start feeling guilty like I have just committed a crime, then I feel like I should call the police because of it. So I call my husband in a panic..and he try's to reassure me that's it's just my OCD but in my mind it feels like so much more. Like I actually want those things I thought to happen.My therapist suggested finding a support group so this is why I joined this group. I'm hoping I can find someone out there that can relate to me so I will have some hope that I'm not some crazy manic that is wanting to do all these horrible things.