Okay, I'm really sorry for being SO bitter guys, but I truly feel that I have to vent my feelings somewhere or I'll become hopelessly depressed. There is something I REALLY need to get off my chest, and that thing is………..My thoughts and feelings about helping others. Now, don't get me wrong, I believe that it's a good thing to reach out to people in need and help them. It would seem to me like the right thing to do….However, I believe I am not in the right state of mind to help others right now. I t's not that I don't WANT to help people who need it, but that I simply CAN'T!!!! It appears to me that the modern society we live in doesn't understand this concept. Let's try not to forget that we were born and raised in a society where the media is constantly telling us that we have to be strong and tough and in control, and always helping others, even if we can't. But I'm no hero. See, this is the problem. If I were to be in any sort of crisis situation where somebody or some people or many people need my help, I'm sorry to say that I would not be able to help them. In those kinds of situations, I would be a coward and run away, when really I should be helping people. Because of the emotional state I'd be in, I would freak out and possibly even scream and/or cry, and I'm afraid that people will judge me for that. I mean, they would probably condemn me and tell me to burn in hell. I would have to suffer the consequences of this. Is it just my OCD talking, or is this a legitimate fear I have? I don't know what else to say about this, so I'll just leave it at that.
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I understand where you are coming from. I don't know what it is about people but sometimes they will plop down next to me and tell me their life story. I am a good listener, but I am no therapist. I am unqualified to help these people. And sometimes people will come to me with problems that are all their fault. And I will tell them that then other people will come yell at me like I am a horrible person for getting mad at somebody "just trying to reach out to me". Then I don't know who really needs help and who doesn't and it keeps me awake at night sometimes.