Ok here’s the deal folks… I apologize in advance for this not being my usual caliber of writing but it is all I can do right now to hold my head up and type this… on tuesday the pain in my head and the seizures had reached an all new high, but still I fought it off. On weds day morning I could no longer take it and when I told my friend to call the emt’s he didn’t hesitate. And I thank him for that. In the ambulance I have to say I had the sweetest emt, and one of the most scared. I thank the first one for their kindness and the latter I want to say just think of all the people that can’t or won’t tell you their positive… just get use to it.

It took them 3 hours to do anything and in the end after 3 full blown seizures in the er they finally gave me something for the pain and convulsions. 6 hours they sent me home. My friend thought I should be admitted… he was probably right.

The next day I went to a new neurologist and I have to say that I absolutely loved him. Within 5 minutes he had already discovered I was on the absolutely wrong meds for my seizures. And after a short talk and revuing my head films he had mercy on me and gave me some thing for the pain. For once I found a doctor who cared about me and what I wanted as far as my treatment went. So now I am at home and very very messed up from the meds, but I am able to function on some level and for that I am thankful. For the first time in a week in am able to be left alone for some time and be relatively ok. My intent is to go to mass later we will see how that goes.

I guess that I am lucky that my church and especially my priest are very understanding and accepting I would be lost with out their friendship. Oh I forgot to mention my friend Mitch who has for 4 days stayed by my side and tended to my every need . He has cooked, drove, cleaned and stayed by me through it all. I have no Idea what I would do without him…. If you feel inclined send him some love to… he could use it.

Ok this update is over and I will be back later… love and good thoughts to you all.