I haven't been on here for a minute. Some days are good and some days are bad. But I thank God that I was able to be alive to see another year. So much has been going on and I thought by now I would have the strength to be able to handle things better then I did a couple of months ago. I get frustrated and aggravated very easy. I thought at one point I was going to lose my sanity. The devil is so busy. He comes in every which way. I start questioning, assuming, and thinking the worst. My mom has turned her back on me and people at my job untrustworthy. Yet I am still standing. Trying to live and do the right thing can be very challenging. I just don't know what to do at times. I try to be this strong person but I still see myself weak and lost. I try to be a good mom, a good friend, a good person, a good girlfriend but at times I catch myself wondering and trying to figure out what to do. I don't know what to feel and how to feel at times. I can't say and do things others may want me to do. I can't feel how others want me to. I feel what I feel. You can have all the love and support in the world but sometimes thats not enough. When you are lost it takes your beliefs and true strength to find yourself again. There's a road that I must travel to get where I need to be in my life. I know I will make it. I pray to the good Lord for strength, courage, guidance and give me peace in my life. Lord knows I want to be happy. I want my relationship to my boyfriend soon to be husband (hopefully) to be healthy. You can't have something or try and build something with someone if you are not right. l I need to work on me. I will get there with God in my corner. What is for me will be for me. I will overcome.