So what is “normal”? Is it a feeling? Is it something we do? Is it somebody’s opinion of us? Everyday its a struggle for me to go about my daily business. Anxiety cripples me, and fear kicks me while Im down. Depression sets in and the the helplessness begins. How do we break the vicious cycle? How to we find the strength to fight back when it seems all of our strength is diminished? There are days when I find it hard to breath,  a simple trip to the grocery store has my stomach it knots and my heart in my throat. What if I get sick? What if I forget something important and have to come back. “What if people look at me and think I’m weird because Im wiping down my shopping cart with hand sanitizer and lysol?” What if what if what if!!!! WHAT IF I could just STOP worrying for ONE whole day??!! How amazing would it be if I could feel normal, if I could just go out and do the things that most people dont even think twice about? What if when I’m cooking something in my kitchen or touching something…anything…i don’t distress myself thinking about all the “harmful” germs on It, and what if I dont trip over my own two feet rushing to my sink to wash them [the “harmful” germs off]? I have my good days, days where I even feel like Im cured of my “crazy”, but just like that anxiety brings me to my knees and fear kicks me in the ribs until I just give up. Everyday is a strugge for me, and brings me to the age old question…what is “normal”? Is it the things we do Everyday, or the person we wish we were or could be?