I’m sorry

I can’t be the perfect daughter

I can’t be that older sister

The one you look up to

I can’t be that younger sister

I’m not the person you want

I cry

I hurt

I’m empty

I’m broke

I feel lost

I’m sorry I can’t be who you want

I’m just a broken person

With a deadly head

With hurting thoughts

Whispering words

Everyone looks so happy

I’m sorry

The slightest happiness

It gets taken

There’s no escaping this deadly place

Deadly thoughts

Insecurities

I’m not perfect

Believe me I know

I’m far from perfect

I’m hurt

I’m scarred

The scars that show my battles

They are also in my head

The ones that can’t be fixed

The ones that keep opening

You wanna say I have screws loose

Go ahead

At least I’m being real with you

I’m sorry

I’m failing the ones I promised

I’m sorry

The only words that make sense

I’m sinking

Ive lost myself

I’m sorry

I’m sorry