I feel down and listless today. I am on a beautiful BC island looking after my sister’s gorgeous place and yet I want it to end. The constant ups and downs are too hard to handle. I am so tired of feeling these emotions. I feel worried about my daughter’s relationship with her boyfriend. They are so often at odds that I project my own old life with her father onto it. The worry fills my body so that even if I try not think about it, I still carry it around. If it wasn’t that it would be the guilt I feel about the mistakes I made raising my son. He says being around me makes him feel bad. I want to know more about that. What is making him feel this way? It’s hard for me to do things as it is without having this guilt weighing me down. Death would hopefully stop this constant painful living. Of course I won’t do it. I care too much about everyone. And so I keep dragging this bag of pain everywhere. I could try to let the bag go. But I care too much about my kids’ well being to do that. Is it helping them for me to feel guilty? Of course not. Would it help them for me to let go of it and live happily. I doubt it. They already think I am so no.
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STUPID MASK!!!
Unique_person, , Depression, Depression, Relationships, 1
I hate pretending to be happy! It’s like I can’t freaken’ control it anymore! I HATE PRETENDING TO BE...
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lag823, , Depression, Relationships, 0
I am and have been watching a lot of stand-up comedy to help myself feel better, because it works...
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rolmbo, , Depression, Child, Relationships, Schizophrenia, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, 0
A little about myself I live 2o minutes north of Dallas, TX in a small town called Lewisville...
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NuNu06, , Depression, Anger, Career, Child, Depression, Relationships, Stress, 2
I fuccn hate everything and everybody. i fuccn hate life also. I have 2 beautiful children but im not...
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Broken hearted
TaraE3389, , Depression, Depression, Grief, Religion, 0
I am the niece of Tara as many of you know committed suidcide. We were debating deleting her account....
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A big dollop of loneliness
Silent_Sigh, , Depression, Anxiety, Career, Sex Therapy, 5
I feel so incredibly pointless. Useless. Lost. I sit and stare at 16 names in chat, and numerous mobile...
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Newbie
dpt_66, , Depression, Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Medication, Relationships, 0
So, I’m new to this. I feel like a little bit of an imposter, but I’m not really. I’ve...
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One Thing and Then Another
James416, , Anxiety, Depression, Anxiety, Depression, Relationships, Stress, 0
I’m doing alright today though I’m not even sure I know what alright means anymore… I guess it’s like...
I feel like you do everyday. Trying to find reasons to hang on. I have a very supportive family with two beautiful children yet I can’t break the cycle of ending it all.