I always thought characters in popular media were overreacting when they talked about heartbreak. I guess I was wrong.
Everything hurts, and I want you back so much.
You were such a gift, and I wish I had cherished my time with you more. I can’t stop thinking of your eyes, your lips, the feel of your hair running through my fingers, your smile, your laugh, the safety I felt when we were together.
I’m so scared.
I want to talk to you so much. My heart aches and I tear up everytime I see or hear you. Every time I get a text my heart leaps at the chance that it might be you.
I miss your easy confidence, the way you can light up a room with your presence.
I feel so lost.
Every little thing reminds me of you.
Why can’t I stop crying?
You look so composed…
and perfect…
Well, not perfect. But nobody is. Was I just too blind to see your ‘mean’ side? That’s what people have been saying. I don’t want to believe that, though.
I love you so much.
You said I've been different since I started the meds. That I was a better person beforehand. Every night I stare at the pills in my hand and wonder if you'd take me back if I stopped taking them.
It feels like a part of me is just… gone.
Sometimes the pain is more bearable. But I don’t think I’m strong enough. It feels like I’m giong to drown again.
I can’t help but feel like everything’s my fault. I mean, that’s the impression that you’ve been giving me. People say I should be more angry at you for the things you said. But I don’t know how to.
Right now I don’t know what to feel.
I feel like I’m going to float away.
You told me once that you’d tie a ribbon around my waist and hold on as I float above. I can fly, like a kite, but you'd always pull you back to earth for snugs when I need them.
Fuck.
What am I going to do now?
Please,
I don’t know what I’m doing. You look so beautiful and I just wnt to run my fingers over your cheekbones and trace the line of your chin. oh god i feel so numb. every little thing you do makes me feel like crying. I love your voice and your laugh, but hearing them hurts so much. I don’t want to cry in front of you again. Fuck I love you so much and it’s tearing me apart.I think that writing this is helping somewhat,
I don’t want to imagine a future where I never get to kiss you again.
I’m so scared and lonely.
I miss your jokes. I still hear them, and smile, but it feels like i’m being torn apart from the inside out. Why can’t I stop looking at pictures of us?
WHY DID I FUCK EVERYTHING UP.
I want to destroy myself. Cut open the skin, and peel it all back to reveal the blood and muscle. set myself on fire and float away on the smoke. Hit a wall until my fists are broken and bloody. gouge out my eyes, snap and crush every bone in my body
everything hurts so much
i don’t even know if I want to die. I just want to stop feeling, stop doing, stop being
It hurts so so so sos oso so so so so much
I’m gonna suffocate from the weight of this sadness
Hello I really don’t know what to say to such a sad post…im here if you need some one to talk to some times that helps a bit take care of your self ok ?- Lost