I lost my mom when I was 9… She died a month and 15 days before my birthday. Right before she died, both her and my dad found out that I was being sexually assaulted.  After my mom died, I went through an identity crisis and cut my hair off and changed my name to “Jax”. Then the self-harming and suicidal thoughts started.  During Thanksgiving of 2023, my dad was in jail and that same day, my sisters and I was molested by a trusted family friend’s brother… My older sister called me and our little sister liars, and saying that we were full of it. She denied to go to court and testify against the guy for my sister and I.  I started to feel like no one actually loved me.. Not even my own family.  That’s when my life completely changed. I was experiencing body dysmorphia and eating disorders… The self-hatred I had/have towards myself is unruly.. I truly feel as if  I’m alone. I’ve been in this depressive state for a while now.. I was on Zoloft but my step-mom didn’t think I actually needed it.. I don’t know how to ask anybody for help because for the longest time, I bottled my emotions up and now the lid to the bottle is popping off and everything is coming out…..  I don’t know what to do.. Does anybody who’s been through some of the same stuff have tips for me?