lets see where do i start…when my dear husband went to the emgerency room,,i knew it was gonna cost us some money…and we have no insurance,,but thats not what i'm really upset about,but yet i am…i have this really hard time with my anger,,lol…cause anger leads to so many other feelings…i get really  mad when i feel that  i have been lied too…these ppl who deal with med bills for those of us who have no insurance called about our bill,,and asked thier questions and we answered them.they called us on weds…they told us that it would be 2 weeks as they look at our case…2 weeks….try 24 hours…and of course the answer was no..as if we didn't see that coming…but i'm also not really mad about that…i'm mad when oursiders give you hope…just so they can watch you fall..and then laugh about it all the way to bank.and to be truthfull about all my feelilngs.i'm even mad at my higher power and god…i feel that they are laughing too…i tried to look at my big book this morning,,,say my prayers..the 3rd step prayer,the resentment prayer..but i'm just so mad that it's taking over everything..so i'm going to a meeting tonight,..i would like to say that i'm hoping that it will help me..but right now as of this moment..pray,hope, sanity,are out the window..but don't worry my friends i'm still here..still sober…just trying to blame someone or something to justafiy the way i feel right now…to make myself feel better.,cause you know paying the bill will not be that bad..4033.35 for 36 months at 140.00 a month i can do that..and not touch my husbands paycheck,,it's just the fact they gave us some hope that maybe just maybe they would help us with the bill…and i know if a bird poops in your hand and you clap your hands,,,you have 2 hands fulls  of poop and and crap all over yourself…sorry that just went through my mind..lol…my sponser told me that along time ago…and i'm not really mad at my higer power or god…but right now i just feel so mad and upset ..and i don't like those feelings…i'm just having a bad day on a good day..thanks for listening..sorry about the spelling.lol..love ya all …ocw