I haven’t done this in awhile but I’ve been thinking. It says in the NA text that recovery in a change in ideas, actions and attitudes. You will hear in a meeting every once in awhile that clean time doesn’t equal recovery and I agree with that sometime. But what recovery is differs for each person. Recovery for me changes the longer I stay clean. In the beginning recovery was things like not just not picking up for a day. Then it was being able to think my way into taking a shower or getting something to eat for my daughter. Two things I had lost the ability to do in the end of my active addiction. Now at two years and 5 months and 2 days I wake up with NO DESIER TO USE. I am up every morning before my daughter and make her lunch for school. These are only a few things that have changed. I see many of us that look at others and compare what their recovery is and don’t see their own. I was at a NA convention this weekend and listen to a man from NY who had 21 years. He sheared many trials he has overcome and did not pick-up over. I thought it a little comforting that even though he was given about 45 minutes to share that he had to speak for 1 hour and a half. Maybe he still struggles with ego? So see recovery for each of us is different. I know one thing for sure. If you continue to try to change you have a chance. If can stay clean just for one day your chances are even better. The more days you can put back to back – well the sky’s the limit. Don’t let someone else tell you if your recovering or not just continue to try. Stay strong and stay clean Johnny Wheels
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well said Johnny- i had a sponcer in Miami tell me if u speak over 20 min at a meating ur r running on ego. I think i would have throune a spit ball at him. someone shooed have got up & said shut the fuk up- like the chair of the convention ! i hate that shit. skag
wow..thanks for sharing this …you have seen my recovery..lol…for me it’s changing right now..and you have helped me so much with your words..i’m so glad that we found each other on this site…and thanks so much for being there for me…love ya ocw..