So I'm on the dinosaur computer again , trying to type out a blog , lol . I wish they'd hurry up and get our laptop back to us ! I'd be on this computer more but it's in my bedroom , and during the day my husband's trying to sleep and it makes it difficult for him because of the light from the monitor and the sound of my typing .

My hypomanic phase was short-lived ; only 3 days this time ~ but WOW did I get a lot accomplished ! I worked almost every day the last week and a half , and made a nice sized paycheck from it . . . which allowed me to be able to go purchase Zachary's big Christmas present ; an adroid tablet for him – his very own big touch screen computer. 🙂 I intend to get all of the shopping done this year before the 2nd week of November ~ it gets too crazy for me to deal with all those crowds. I just can't cope with it , and people are grumpy and nutty about getting to things first . Nope ~ not this year .

I'm happy to say that things are going much better between Aaron and I . We've been talking quitea bit the last few days about what's happening in our relationship and ways to make things better . There are things I need to work on , and things he needs to work on . I think what it's eventually going to come down to is moving out of my Mom's place . I'm really grateful for everything and I love her , but this was never supposed to be permanent and we're coming up on being here 6 years now . We both feel very limited on our rights as adults here , the ability to throw parties is nonexistent , we don't have friends over because my mom doesn't like company , and she herself is depressed and very negative and it affects us all . She is often very critical about how we handle Zachary as parents , what we choose to do about planning ( she hates spur of the moment changes ) , and is very defensive when spoken to . It's really taking a toll on our marriage and putting a lot of strain on everyone . The problems with leaving are complicated though .. . financially , morally and emotionally . It's such a mess . Grrrrrrrr .

Zachary is doing well , and thank you so much to my friends and others that commented on the blog I put up regarding his "diagnosis" . You all know I hate labels , but at least now I understand better some of the things about him I didn't before . And as several of you pointed out , there are gifts to thisas well . He's incredibly smart , creative , and good atmath , language/reading/spelling , and he LOVES science . He's always coming up with oneexperiment or another to try . 🙂 I'm glad to know that I have friends thathave also been down this road with their own child and can help me along the way . You are such a wonderful gift to me , and I'm so glad I have you !

I'm tired and I thinkI'm going to nap beforeI have to get Zachary from the bus stop . Today I have the day off , but tomorrow I'm back to work again . But at least it means I'm making some sort of income . It makes mefeel like I'm contributing financially somehow .

I hope this blog allfinds you well and Iwill hopefully be in touch again soon . As for now Ineed to let Aaron get some good sleep too. Ilove and miss you all !

~ Key