Okay. To start, in case you don't already know – I swtiched a medicine a couple months ago. I swtiched from Saphris to Abilify. While on Saphris I didn't remember any dreams I had. With Abilify, I do remember my dreams. Let me tell you, some are strange, some a little scary. I've read this is pretty normal for Abilify.
I talked to my psychologist about these dreams last night while I was in therapy. I liked his outlook on it. One of the things he said was, something to the extent, it was a pretty good trade off to have these dreams. It's such a good trade off because now my mood swings are so much better. Yea, I'll take some weird and/or a little scary dreams in the night over constant cycling. My doctor said how he noticed the difference in me. That's wonderful! I mean, I've noticed the difference, most definitely. My family has too. I only see him though, once a week for 45 minutes. If he can notice a difference for the better, I consider that fantastic.
It's a little strange to be remembering dreams again. Sometimes I don't know what to do with them. It's a little tough to go from no memories of dreams to sometimes vivid memories of dreams. I guess it's something I have to process. Something I have to get used to. I'm fine with it as long as they don't turn into full blown nightmares. I can deal with a little anxiety over a dream better than ultra rapid cycling.
Yes, I still cycle. However, my hypomania is for the most part, non-existent. I was cycling from hypomania to depression with no periods of normalcy. Now, I am cycling much slower. Much slower! From depression to normalcy. Plus, when I do have depression, it's not as bad.
Major plus – irritability has decreased tremendously. It's some great undefined percentage better.
I struggled at first with the Abilify and it's side effects. I'm really glad however that I pushed through it. It's definitely been worth it.