hi I’m Rosemary and I’m 14 years old I was born October 1st 2007 and I’m currently a freshman. I have a very complicated life I would say but I know there’s people out there who are struggling more than I am so I really don’t have a place to say that but from my perspective I have a very complicated life. So when I was about 5 years old my birth father was in jail and he had been to jail three times when I was young. At the age of six I moved to a new city and I started a new school I was there from kindergarten to 4th grade. I was only there for the beginning of 4th grade and then I moved with my real father and my stepmother. I moved and it was a new change for me but as I was their things happened. I would say I have a rocky relationship with my stepmother because me and her do not always see eye-to-eye and that brings a lot of tension into the relationship. The reason why I moved with them is because my real mother did not want me and my older sister anymore so she abandoned us and gave us to our father I would say that’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me because. but problems had occurred in 6th grade. During my 6th grade year I would get bullied a lot people would call me names and people would just leave me and threatened me so that was the first time I’ve had Suicidal Thoughts. The first time I’ve actually attempted suicide was also in sixth grade, things progressively got worse, as time went on I grew more and more immune to being sad and emotionless when it comes to other people. I was a bright kid but things happen to me and my life has changed. I struggle with a lot of issues I have anger issues and I used to go to therapy for that but I have a lot of issues besides anger issues I know I have mental health issues I was going to be put into a psych ward but I was not and that was in my freshman year which is current.  I feel like I don’t know who I am I don’t know what to do with myself I try to be happy and I tried to be brave for my siblings but they’re also part of a reason why I am the way I am I’m not good with sharing my feelings or communication but I do try. I have a best friend who I’ve known for six years she’s my rock she’s literally my person she’s the person I go to for everything she’s literally my family by her family does things for me like it’s crazy because her family is literally my second family and me and her really on a lot of things like she doesn’t have a dad just like I don’t have a mother and we just have been together ever since I met her when I moved to my new elementary school she went in 5th grade and we became best friends ever since then our bond has grew. But I feel like there’s things about me that people don’t like and I feel like a lot of people don’t like me for who I am and I always feel like I need to change myself I also feel like need validation from people in order to continue on with something. I struggle with anxiety and I used to go with depression . my 8th grade year I was extremely depressed and I force myself to not eat for a few days I would force myself to throw up I would have breakdowns for no reason and I never knew why but my ninth-grade year was worse I was emotionless I didn’t know how to put my emotions into words or how to talk to anyone but I found help and I am currently getting help. With my anxiety I don’t know how to control it but it is getting better. Some things that I do to calm myself when I’m stressed out or feeling down is I listen to music I try to go to sleep I take walks I like reading medical journals because I want to become a general surgeon. I’m very fascinated in the human anatomy and how are body functions I already know Basics I know how to do an appendectomy but I find that calming for me because medical research just puts my mind at ease and I have something to focus on because I do have problems focusing but things have gotten better for me 100%.