I’m coming here because I feel like I need a place to air out my thoughts and emotional experiences. I have suffered from depression as long as I can remember but it’s always bounced up and down. Especially as a child and teen it was more sporadic, but in adulthood it hurts a lot worse. It feels a lot darker, as though I can’t come out from it. I am 24 so I don’t feel as though I’m that old, but it feels as though I’ve already failed at life. I have never had any real relationships. A couple weeks ago the woman that I was talking with told me that she no longer felt anything for me. She was the first person that I felt like I actually was going to have something with and now she doesn’t talk to me at all. Beyond losing her I have lost all my friends. I don’t really know why or when but it wasn’t until I lost her that I noticed. I fell deep into a hole and I reached out to everyone I could think to totaling around 20 different people. No one cared. I started to feel suicidal and tried reaching out once more. Same. I went to the hospital and spent a night and have since been prescribed meds which I haven’t been on long enough to know if they’re going to help. I feel like I am completely alone. I have no relationship. No friends and no family that I feel close to. I feel like my life is meaningless and I don’t know where to go from here.