I feel that I should tell you alittle more about myself.
As a child I used to spend nights praying and confessing sins I had committed and felt extreme guilt for the things I had done. I got consumed by that and felt that if I didn’t pray for people that they would get sick and die, I had to include everyone I knew. At around fourteen I recognized I had an eating disorder, I was never diagnosed with this but it was obvious to me, I would only eat what I had to in front of people, then I would not keep that down. I hid it from my family and most of my friends. They all knew I wasn’t well but didn’t know why. This is the point where I discovered art as an outlet, I had always been into painting and drawing but now I used it to understand what I looked like…I would paint myself and later take pictures of myself trying to figure out what I really look like to other people. I found that I really loved creating and ended up getting a degree in painting. About seven years ago I began with my OCD it is a skin-picking disorder and I figure that kinda goes along with everything I have ever done, I am trying to take something away from myself to make myself more perfect. I was just recently diagnosed and still have problems talking to people about it. I had told my husband about four years ago when we were dating, I didn’t know exactly what it was but I knew it wasn’t right. (I had a friend who had an OCD since she was around twelve so I knew about them that way. ) I am hopeful that talking here can help me and that I can meet alot of people that can lend their expierences to help me and I hope I can do the same.
I am glad that there is a place like this to talk to people that understand.
It’s nice to meet you all and I hope that you all are having a wonderful week!