I Hate Myself Affirmation Deep at the centre of my being, there is an angry dirty well of despair. I now allow this despair to flow to the surface. It fills my heart, my body, my mind, my consciousness, my very being, and radiates out from me in all directions and returns to me mutliplied. The more I despair, the more I lose. The supply is endless. The use of despair makes me feel good, it is an expression of my inner ugliness. I hate myself; therefore, I refuse to take care of my body. I laughingly feed it junk foods and alcohol, I laughingly groom it and dress it, with distrust, and my body visciously responds to me with sickness and unease. I hate myself; therefore I provide for no-one but myself an uncomfortable home, one that fills all my needs and is a cell to dwell in. I fill the rooms with the vibration of despair so that all who enter, myself included, will feel this and be consumed by it. I hate myself; therefore I work at a job I can't stand doing, one that uses none of my creative talents and abilities, working with and for people that use me to earn their incomes I hate myself; therefore, I behave and think in a resentful way to all people, for I know that that which I give out, returns to me multiplied. I only attract depressed people in my world, for they are a mirror of what I am. I hate myself; therefore I refuse to forgive and I refuse to release the past and all past experiences. I am in bondage. I Hate myself; therefore I live in the past, reliving each moment and torturing myself with regret my future is dark, dreary and insecure, for I am a cast away child of the Universe and the Universe has turned its back on me now and forever more. And so it is.