…okay, so know I have revealed my illness to my super terrific boss-lady who totally related when in fact she has a sister with BP schoizoid illness….this all played in my favor, with a sigh of relief. She recommended I take a month leave under FMLA then file with HR dept as having the disability for intermittent absences that will occur without having repracussion on my performance as an employee. she also reassured me that she will always have the job for me 🙂
NOW- the next hurdle to attack- my so called boyfriend/fiance’ (I do have a ring given to me first XMAS we shared three yrs ago now)….but doubt we will ever marry under the circumstances of fighting and my illness. I am so dreading telling him about my leave for a month that I know it will be a major uproar and things as usual will reak havoc upon me once again as if my stressors and irregular daily routines have not been outta whack already… 🙁 I need some input….He is a very strong personality person and demands alot from me- he refuses to read or educate himself any about my illness other than what I try to share with him….he IS HITLER living in my house and TELLS ME WHAT I AM AND HOW I AM to do things in MY HOUSE. Granted he pays the monthly mortgage,about 980.00 month, but he chooses to do so in telling me he realizes the costs of my medications are heavy along with I am paying ALL our utilities. He tells me he understands that I am in need of the financial umph he provides in on breath, but in his fighting words he claims I dont pay shit. I view him as a “RENTER” his name is NOT on my mortgage, he moved in with me. YET, he continues to state that this IS HIS house too. therfore he makes decisions whether I like it or not. 🙁
I am thinking about turnign to renters.com to find another someone to take his place as far as financial help….not a relationship to alleviate this turmoil he puts upon me daily…..any suggestions out there?????
forever battle an ongoing neverending illness with undue stressors attacking me left and right unrelentlessly……..and I’m sinking.