So I have an announcment.
I’ll keep this short and sweet as i’m bloody tired.
I have decided that as of today March 23, i’m going to (try) to give up drinking (again).
I’m doing this for:
a) My own physical and mental health.
b) i’m sick of having to appologise for my behaviour when i’m drunk.
c) I’m sick of the hangovers
d) I’m tired of having to hide bottles everywhere in places where i hope they never get found.
e) Alcohol is a depressant.
f) I want to have money again. I’m spending so much on alcohol.
g) I want to not have to worry about if i smell of alcohol or not.
h) For myself, no one else.
i) To gain the respect back from the people I care about.
j) To not be known as the drunk anymore.
k) To not have to worry about if the people in the bottleshop recognise me when I come in all the time.
l) To be able to think clearly again.
m) To not make a fool of myself all the time.
n) To be able to actually do the things I want to do in the future.
o) To have a future that is not in a gutter somewhere.
p) To stop the midnight snacks when i’m drunk and I want something to eat.
q) To be able to have converstions with people without them wondering if i’m drunk again.
r) To help me in stop SI’ing as its when i’m drunk i do it most.
s) To increase my chance of living, as its when i’m drunk that I’m very suicidal.
t) To not end up in a hospital needing a liver transplant.
u) So i’m not the wierd one anymore
v) To stop being sick all the time
w) So I don’t have black out and not remember conversations.
x) Maybe I can make someone proud one day
y) To have an achievment that i’m proud off.
z) So I can be me again.
aa) To find myself again
bb) To save my brain cells.
I don’t know how i’ll go. I’m not going to promise everything. I’m not expecting magic, and i’m keeping my expectations low.
Thats all i can think of, so much for being short and sweet.