Another successful night last night, woo! Skipped my bedtime routine again. I have to note that skipping my bedtime routine for me is trying to skip it completely, but if I need to ask a few questions, I'll do that vs. asking too many questions, haha. I just like having the option available to ask/do anything if I feel I need to, because I'm more likely to go, "Okay, I don't need to do this." If I feel I'm being backed into a corner, then the pressure increases, and I end up doing my ritual 10x worse than usual. Funny how it works like that, isn't it?

I also don't look at all of my goals at once, because that's too overwhelming. Instead, every day when I get up, I constantly try to change/shorten something (even if it's just one thing), or omit it completely if I can, because I know it's okay to not do what my OCD wants me to do.

I guess that's my message for today. You all know what kind of rituals you have, what your own individual issues are. Don't look at all of your goals at once. It's too overwhelming that way, and you'll wind up feeling defeated before you even begin trying to make a change.

However, if you're in a braver mood, you can try changing a lot of things at once. My doctor said to me a while back that I only prolong my suffering by doing things slowly, when I could just dive in, feel the anxiety surge, and later see it dissipate. I could get better faster if I just go for it. And that's great advice, because it's true. But for me, it's easier to work at a slower pace, though I do have my brave moments. 🙂

Hope you all find the best pace for you in your recovery, whether you prefer to work slower, or faster. 🙂 Just some things to think about for the day.

Brandi

3 Comments
  1. Branypoo 11 years ago

    Unknowable,

    Thanks! Yes, I know what you mean, don't believe she has. She's a fantastic doctor though, and wants the best for her patients, of course. She doesn't want to see them suffer, as would any doctor, but it is difficult to "go for it" when we're talking OCD. I do believe in brave moments though, it is possible to change many things at once, feel great about it, and have that success last. 🙂 Thanks so much, hope you're doing well. 🙂

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  2. PinkLeague 11 years ago

     Hi Branypoo! At what point (during your journey) did you decide to seek a doctor? 

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  3. Branypoo 11 years ago

    marnella,

    Thank you so much for your kind comments! 🙂 I see! Isn't that strange? I think it's just the pressure, it causes you to become even more anxious and irrational. As if we don't already have enough of that with our OCD, right? 🙂

    PinkLeague,

    Hi! 🙂 I waited way too long to seek help. I tried to put it off as long as I could, and ended up needing treatment out of necessity. There was no other option, I had to go whether I wanted to or not. If you think you need help, and haven't sought any yet, please don't hesitate to do so. Nothing to be ashamed of, just ask for help. You'll be so glad you did. 🙂

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