After 10 years of depression and anxiety, I took a trip back to Thailand where I had been 30 years ago with my then partner.
This time I went with my brother . We spent some time in Bangkok, flew up to Chang Mai for a week, then a week in Cambodia, then to Phuket in southern Thailand. Since I’ve been back I’ve been feeling less depressed . I am already trying to decide where to go this winter.
I’m thinking somewhere where I can snorkel. I discovered it in Hawaii not long ago and once I go in the water I never want to come out. Life is so much better under water. But, of course, price is an issue. Asia is cheap to travel. I would love to go to the Caribbean or the Galapagos. We’ll see but I know that travelling for 6 weeks helped my mental health a great deal.
These days I walk my dog at a different beach every morning. She is great off leash and loves to run and go in the water. This morning we came across a sea otter as big a she is. The sea otter ran into the ocean with Maggie (my dog) very interested in her. Every day is still a challenge but I’ve learned a new technique with dealing with triggers. I face the trigger , breathe it in and breathe out relief from that trigger for me and for all those who suffer from that same trigger or feeling be it guilt, feeling like I wasn’t perfect, on and on. it’s helping.
I did it. I did break up with my boyfriend and have stayed that way. He was great but just not who I want to be with. I am proud of myself for not sinking into just watching tv day and night since. I am actually doing stuff, I went sailing with another brother of mine for a week and socializing a bit and of course the long beach walks.