Left my mom's place yesterday afternoon…here at my dad's right now. On my way here yesterday, I was crying while driving my car… so sad that I have to leave my moms, but I know it is for the best.
Looking forward to the holidays.. usually I spend Christmas Eve with my dads side of the family. I really wanted to spend Christmas day with my mom…but that's not going to happen. The last time I had spent Christmas day with my mom, was a couple years now. I miss the good holidays… when my grandparents were still around. Christmas day was always wonderful… we would always go to my grandma's house on Christmas and have a wonderful Christmas dinner. Makes me cry right now, but in a good way. I am hoping maybe next year, my sis and I can spend xmas with my mom. All I know, is I never want to see my mom's husband ever again. I am glad I don't have to worry about his bull anymore. Everyday while at my moms, it felt like I had to walk on eggshells around him. No more feelings of that.
My dad is so happy that I am staying with him until I get my own place. I am cold right now, hard to type..my hands need to warm up. Been applying for more jobs… taking a break from the college life, going to work fulltime for a while.. and thinking about going back in the fall. Lots to do. I am just so thankful for my family and dear friends who support everything and anything I do. I am thankful for the friends I have on here… Life would be a little harder if I weren't able to vent on here. Thankful for Anxiety Tribe.
Things are looking up… just keeping positive…I wish my mom well, and I hope when her time comes, she will leave that jerk.