Okay so I have to start these new meds and I really don’t want to but it’ll make my mom and my doctor happy so here we go. It’s not that I don’t like meds, but my last ones didn’t do anything and I wasted a whole year on them and I don’t want that to happen with these, but it seems like that’s what’s going to happen. My mom also said that they would mostly likely not do anything so she’s really optimistic. I wish that she was a little more supportive and caring with her words rather than just spewing shit out there, it hurts more than I think she knows or understands.
Also a key on my laptop broke and it won’t go back on, it’s the T, which is one of the most used letters in the alphabet so that really fucking sucks. Like it’s awful, I have to poke this tiny little button and most of the time it doesn’t even work and I’m so frustrated but I can’t get a new one. I’m too broke for that, and I have been asking for one forever, but my mom doesn’t wanna get me one because I don’t deserve it. God I sound spoiled and stupid and I’m so sorry I’m so annoying, I know.