i have no idea what i can say to help but i do care. anyways i know your pain in a way because im so beyond done myself. listen i know you probably do not give two flying fucks about me but yea if it means anything id help if i could. anyways i may not be here to help, not tht i could anyway, but i may not be for long because ive decided i need to kill myself like really soon. i want to do it tonight because i cant hold on any longer and if i gotta spend another minute suffering through just how this shit feels im gonna die anyway. well anyways i wish you the best of luck and i'll praay for you too before i go but it isnt anyones fault im like this and no i didnt come on here to find you so i could post something suicidal specifically to you to make you worry, its not like that at all. i honestly just saw this was posted by chance and i havent been on here for a long time, but ive been considering killing myself for very long. ive been to the hospital twice since i last talked to you and ive tried many different meds but you know, it doesnt really matter. and ik you probably think that im just going here for attention or ranting and that i haave it so good cuz i have people here for me and you dont and im not saying i have anything worse than you but im not strong enough to deal with what i do have and i dont really care who it hurts anymore. i do but its just too much to handle. anyways, youre a great person, dont let this disorder take over your life. you'll make it through this, that i truly believe. and its very easy for me to just say that but i really do believe it. anyways, probably for the last time ever, im sorry you have to go through this hell and i wish i could take it away from you. im sorry for our past and im sorry for the shitty things ive done and said. i just figured its a good time to clear my slate or try my best to considering i wont be alive much longer… anyways if im alive and if you still even want to chat, which i have no fucking clue why you would after the shit ive said to you and how i acted, im here to try to help. but i wont be much help as of now anyway, ive got too much going on but, im here to talk as long as im breathing. sincerely, Jordan.

i also cant do much to help anyway. not only could i already not because i suck at helping others i feel like and i have no idea what to suggest, but right now im worse than ive been in my entire life and ive never been so suicidal ever. so yea, i dont even know why the hell i posted this, you probably wont read it anyway and ive got nothing to offer you for help but my prayer but, anyway, seriously seek as much help as you can and never give up, you can do this.