Hey eveyone my names David and im pretty new to the OCD tribe.. Im mostly all obsessions and they are mostly violent ones of hurting loved ones or even just someone at work. I also fear going crazy and losing control.. I had my first break down about two years ago and I was starting my junior year of high school. I started to take a Culinary class but not soon after did I have a panic attack over the knifes that we would be using in the class. I came home and told my mom how I was feeling and she didnt quite understand. She kept saying that I was a nice kid and have never hurt anyone before. I found it hard to believe and i told her i didnt want to go back to school. after a few days of my mom calling many therapists she eventually brought me to the emergency room because making appointments with therapists isnt always that easy. I told them how i was feeling and they eventually transfered me to another hospital where I stayed for almost a Month. They started me on prozac and began teaching me and many other troubled kids coping skills to help deal with our problems. during this whole process i had come out to my family that I was gay and they were all very accepting. Thank god. when I evetually came home from the hospital I was still on prozac and seeing a therapist. I started back to school and met a boy who is today my boyfriend. we helped eachother in the coming out process and he made me extremely happy for the first time in awhile. Now we have just graduated this past summer and he moved away to college this fall 🙁 . i had stopped taking my prozac during the summer because i thought i didnt need it any longer. When he first left I was fine for like a month but then it hit me .. My OCD thoughts had come back to haunt me .. It was like a relapse of my past.. Luckily I still had a Therapist so we called my doctor and therapist and I went in to talk with them. My doctor put me back on prozac and it is helping control alot of the anxiety. I have also been reading Brain Lock by Jeffery M Shwarts. Which has helped a little with learning to blame the thoughts on OCD and nothing more. I was just wondering if anyone has dealt with similar symtoms and what kinds of coping skills they use to control the thoughts. Thank you for reading hope to hear back from someone. Take care everyone -David