Hey eveyone my names David and im pretty new to the OCD tribe.. Im mostly all obsessions and they are mostly violent ones of hurting loved ones or even just someone at work. I also fear going crazy and losing control.. I had my first break down about two years ago and I was starting my junior year of high school. I started to take a Culinary class but not soon after did I have a panic attack over the knifes that we would be using in the class. I came home and told my mom how I was feeling and she didnt quite understand. She kept saying that I was a nice kid and have never hurt anyone before. I found it hard to believe and i told her i didnt want to go back to school. after a few days of my mom calling many therapists she eventually brought me to the emergency room because making appointments with therapists isnt always that easy. I told them how i was feeling and they eventually transfered me to another hospital where I stayed for almost a Month. They started me on prozac and began teaching me and many other troubled kids coping skills to help deal with our problems. during this whole process i had come out to my family that I was gay and they were all very accepting. Thank god. when I evetually came home from the hospital I was still on prozac and seeing a therapist. I started back to school and met a boy who is today my boyfriend. we helped eachother in the coming out process and he made me extremely happy for the first time in awhile. Now we have just graduated this past summer and he moved away to college this fall 🙁 . i had stopped taking my prozac during the summer because i thought i didnt need it any longer. When he first left I was fine for like a month but then it hit me .. My OCD thoughts had come back to haunt me .. It was like a relapse of my past.. Luckily I still had a Therapist so we called my doctor and therapist and I went in to talk with them. My doctor put me back on prozac and it is helping control alot of the anxiety. I have also been reading Brain Lock by Jeffery M Shwarts. Which has helped a little with learning to blame the thoughts on OCD and nothing more. I was just wondering if anyone has dealt with similar symtoms and what kinds of coping skills they use to control the thoughts. Thank you for reading hope to hear back from someone. Take care everyone -David

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  1. blondiemom 9 years ago

     Hey David.  I have the same thoughts, the only way for me to overcome them was to put myself in situations that gave me anxiety.  I used to put knives up where I couldn't reach them, now I keep them in open sight.  I used to not drive because I was worried I would hit someone, now I drive all the time.  If you want to look it up, it's called cognitive behavorial therapy.  It's not fun, it feels like you are going to die the first few times, but it has done wonders for me!

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  2. genuineken 9 years ago

     Hey My therapist has been talking to me about CBT ! We have been working on a book called the OCD workbook and we were talking about putting me in situations where I would get alot of anxiety. Before I had my brake down and went to the hospital I also would always check my mirrors or even turn around to see if i hit someone its a terrifying feeling and its so time consuming :/ .. Im always trying to tell myself that the thoughts are my OCD but then I start douting myself and think that Im going crazy and am a pyscho.. I hate it ! I just want to be myself again. I have been avoiding going places like family partys and out because of my thoughts but im starting to learn that if i force myself to just go that even if i have a little anxiety I am fighting my disorder and thats whats going to help me. Thank you for commenting I really apprecitate it and im glad CBT worked for you ! hope it helps me out to ! Take care -David

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  3. genuineken 9 years ago

     Thanks Jerry I really appreciate the support \"\"

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  4. genuineken 9 years ago

    Thanks Natesh ! Nice talking to you last night.. Hope we can talk again soon ! Take care -David

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  5. gab12_9_93 9 years ago

    I went to The Houston OCD Program (the placed literally saved my life by the way) and what we were taught was to not control your thoughts but just let them be. That sounds crazy but it's about being able to tolerate your thoughts. I suggest doing this when you're not busy because this will drain you and you will get tired after having so much anxiety.

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  6. genuineken 9 years ago

    I just went to a OCD support group last night and they were talking about doing that.. They all said that its a good method. Ill have to try it sometime. Thanks for the comment -David

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