Today I closed my store on etsy. It was all I had. I finally met that one horrible rotten human being (nasty customer)that pushed me over the edge. I don't think this woman is mentally ill, because if she were, I would have sympathy and understand why she's so mean (not that mentally ill people are mean, but I/we can be unstable sometimes, that's just a fact)

No, she isnot sick,this person is just mean. She actually was happy when she saw I closed my shop because of her. I truly wonder what is in the heads of people like this. Bullies. The same people who laugh when someone mentions suicide, the same people who call all of us on this site who suffer greatly from a disease "CRAZIES".

Those are the people I am talking about. The people who don't suffer, but enjoy causing others to suffer, take great power and joy out of being difficult and cruel.

I don't understand that. I don't understand it because it's not how I was raised. I don't understand it because it's not what's in my heart. I forgive, treat people with respect and even when I fly off the handle, I always, always make things right because I can't stand discord. I can't stand anger and disputes.

WHY DO SO MANY PEOPLE LIKE THIS?

I worked so hard at the only thing I can do. I'm on disablity and maybe I won't even have that after my review on Friday. Then what? What do I have? I am a complete loser and I keep running into people who enjoy the fact that I'm ill and making it worse. It's like kicking someone in the head with cancer.

Speaking of that, Elizabeth Edwards died today. The thing that makes me sick about that is that I used to support John Edwards and when I found out he cheated on Elizabeth, I was more disgusted in men than I was before and that is saying something.

I can imagine John finding the opportunity to cheat on his sick wife, the mother of his children, trying to get pleasure out of her being ill because he's just that way, a man, a man with no morals.

I have less and less faith in good. There is very little good left in people and in the world. The world is run by evil and greed. No wonder some of us are depressed!!!! Sometimes I really don't think I'm all that sick. Sometimes, I think it's the fucked up assholes in this fucked up world that are making me this way.