aaarrrggghh.  I am so confused.  I am having all sorts of trauma trying to figure out what I am going to do.  My current insurance (wich sucks) expires on 9/30/10.  That is not that far away.  My current Psychiatrist, who is old fashioned and he does both the medication management and therapy, does not accept medicaid and that is what I am going to end up with.  I am also nervous about medicaid…I have never had it before and am nervous about the application process.  I do not even know how early I should apply…I can not have a lapse of insurance.  I am so scared.  I called the clinic where I am going to have to go to see the new psychiatrist and they could not get me in to see the psychiatrist until at least october.  I really wanted to be able to see the new doctor before I was done with my old doctor…but that is not going to happen.  What if I hate them?  What if its not a good fit?  I have had the same psychiatrist for over 3 years now.  And just the change alone is enough to make me a nervous wreck.  Let alone all of the red tape that I have to go through to get new doctors and medicaid.  I honestly am petrified of the whole process.  I do not like change that much.  I am comfortable with my current doctor and am so afraid that I will not find that good of a report with anyone else.  Any advice from anyone that has tackled the medicaid system?  Or had to leave a doctor where it was a great fit for the unknown?  My thoughts will not stop racing about this.  I can't seem to be able to settle down about it.  I do have to see a therapist at CHBS (the new doctor) and then after I see them once I can at least continue to see the new therapist that I have been seeing for about a month.  so much change all at once.  scary.  Like I said above, any advice would be greatly appreciated.