Hello I have been on here for 2 years and never blogedso I figured id try it . I always just went to the chat room. So here goes. I have had anxiety and panic attacks since I can remember 2nd grade was real bad and 4th grade I had no clue what was happening to me.my teacher told my mom that I just didn't like school that why I pretended to be sick well that wasn't the case at all. It wasn't till I was bout 16 that I started to relize what it was and I don't understand why I have it. It progressively gotten worse in the past 4 years I have had a lot of things happen and changes I think that might have something to do w it. Anyways I went to school to do hair and I love it idk how I got thro 2 years of school but I did. And I found a. Job I loved we weren't real busy but for me that was good I liked everyone I worked with I was planning on staying there for a long time. I wrk there for 8 months well they changed the district manager and she let me go cause my total weren't high enough cause we weren't that busy.it sucked I still hate that she did that. It been bout a year now that it happend.so anyways my anxiety level wa down. when I was wrkn there.I ened up findng another job at a salon and I hated it my panic attacks got so bad that I had to quit.so since then iv tried to get diff jobs but no luck and I'm afraid if I do get another one that these panic attacks will cause me to have to quit again. So I have an interview Thursday and I so scared that I won't be able to wrk.it been like 8months since iv wrk I need the money I just so scared that this panic going to come back and it makes me feel like a failure and it sucks.anyway thanks fr reading this have a good nite.