*i didn’t see him last night*
i wish that i could run away
or die soon
cause all i feel is burning rage
want to turn it loose
i know that to commit
is to lose
but i need to get out of this
i get to choose
to stay alive
or die
if i go,
then i’ll be fine
but i can’t see the calm
if i stay
haven’t even published a song
it’s the only way
hope is way too small
to calm my fears
but even when i’m gone
it still keeps me here
i’ve been hurting way too long
want to disappear
but hope will make me strong
if i know that you’ll be near.
but i don’t
so that’s why i fall
wish i could float
but my strength is gone
so i just watch you dive beneath
and grab my hands
like a treasure at the bottom of the sea
i’m filled with sand
and while i think through these fantasies
my feet touch land
and somehow you mean so much to me
that i change my plans.
