….it’s a Son of a Bitch.
I tell ya being someone who suffers from depression on a regular basis I can tell you it Fuckin’ sucks. It has cost me a lot of things in my life, mainly my sanity. Sometimes I feel like I am completely loosing my mind, like I can just be locked up and throw the key away. I can’t really explain it too well, but that’s the best way I know how right now.
OMG and if I’m not on my meds Watch the Fuck Out! Lately it’s been about a month or longer since I’ve had any meds, and I’ve managed to let something really important slip right out of my hands. The biggest thing that sucks about it all is that I have No One Else to blame but myself. Do you really know how bad that sucks? I mean really, do you?? It does, it sucks ass if you wanna know the truth.
But oh well, let’s turn this half empty cup upside down and let me cup be half full. Let’s learn from this and move on…….hehehehe easier said than done that’s for sure!
Oh BTW, you may not of known that I suffer from depression that’s because I can hide it very well. I guess you can say I’m a master at hiding it.
So why am I sharing this right now? Well I guess it’s to educate people about Depression. It’s not something to take too lightly and when you do than that’s when it comes up and bites you in the ass. Depression is not my friend.
side note: I’m reading this out loud to Dewey and cracking myself up, that should give you an idea of what kind of mood I am in this morning/right now. Of course, that can change at any given minute/second. Not sure why I’m in this crazy giddy mood when I woke up this morning I found my preious little daughter Eleanor only to have taken my purse out of my bedroom to go through everything in there. Which normally would piss me off, but I was mad but not insanely mad.