I'm not sure if this has anything to do with OCD…BUT!
I've been working at revamping my resume for a Social Service Worker job for quite some time. The College I graduated from offered a really good resume building site and I took full advantage. I had no clue where to start with my resume, but my old one just wouldn't cut it!
Anyways, it's *ALMOST* done. For a lot of my job descriptions for the jobs (or the placement experience), I searched online for job descriptions for certain places hiring. (For instance, I worked at a shelter, so, I looked up online what people hiring for shelter's require and obtained some good points to write down and change into my own wording.
Anyways, I wanted an opinion on the resume … so I sent it to a Social Service Worker friend also looking for work in the field. (Although she's looking for a part-time so she can be with daughter). Stupid thing for me to do! She said that she REALLY liked my points and was going to use them!!! I said that was OK, but now I'm worried that maybe she's going to copy all of my points word-for-word and use them! (She had previously been in a shelter positon.) '
I know she can't possibly copy the ENTIRE thing, (she had different placement experiences), but she'd probably copy the 'Qualifications' section whcih I had worked so hard on. She told me that her resume was entirely different!
Now I'm up late obsessing over my STUPID error. I deleted the link to my resume which has relieved some anxiety but now I just want to change the words on it and cry! I worked so hard; imagine if she ripped off most of it!?! Now what to do? How can I re-work it? It was basically perfect!
I have some points I can think of not to worry, like: she didn't have all of the same placement experiences or jobs (like she didn't work with brain injured people), and she has little to no interest in finding a lot of Social Service Worker jobs. (She has a daughter and feels comfortable with her 7/11 job). I know she's my friend but I think maybe absently mindedly she may just copy and paste. I also acknowledge that she probably won't be looking into the same jobs as me-or applying in anything other than what she wanted. (She wants specifically a night-time youth shelter job.)
I don't want to remake the entire thing after working so hard but what can I do? I just didn't think she'd copy all of it … just some points. But now I'm obsessing over it! it's 1:43 AM and I can't sleep.
The Social Services are a VERY competitive work thing. Whta happens if she shares my resume with another? I doubt this but gah!!! Imagine if apply at the same places or if she applies first and lands a job? Man!!! And even if she never does; I still feel like's going to carry all of the information I worked hard for.
How can I sleep? How could I have been so stupid? I really did a good job and I don't get why I didn't think about it. This wouldn't be the first time people liked what I wrote…in my past, relatives and friends for school would sometimes copy word-for-word what I wrote…-_-
So, I changed the format (it looks a little different), now I just need to alter some wording…and keep track of the job search sites.
Is this OCD or am I just distressed at losing something I worked so hard on? It's just so difficult to find some relaxing now that the damage could be quietly done…
Sorry for my rants. Hope I can sleep soon…