I used to be a dreamer… Now I'm a planner.

I don't know if anyone else is like this but I've gotten into the habit of planning out every single day, every single hour of the day. If my day doesn't go according to plan I sink into a pit of shame, as if I haven't reached my own expectations for myself. I'm not saying that plans are a bad thing, but they take away from life.

When I was younger I had dreams like how I was gonna live on a huge farm with the greatest husband ever and I was going to have lots of animals and maybe even a few kids. As I grew older and life started to get the better of me I lost hope in these dreams, and I forgot the pure essense of having dreams. Dreams aren't there to take us away from reality. They're there to keep us moving. When the dreams become plans that's when you have a problem.

Plans take away from the sheer excitement of a surprise. Life should be full of surprises but for someone like me, surprises mean having to experience something that could go horribly wrong. Because I like to plan out everything if there's an opportunity I have but I'm not sure how it'll go I end up skipping out on it.

Example: I was invited to this party with a guy from school that I was really interested in. I didn't really know him, though, and because I couldn't imagine how the party would go I ended up not going. Then he didn't go, and I found out he didn't go because I wasn't going to be there. Of course, I felt bad about not going, so the next week I went to see a movie with him and I went to a club with him. I was super afraid, but I got myself dolled up, and put on my best perfume, and believe it or not, I had one of the greatest times with him that I've had in a long time. I also noticed that it turned out that he was more nervous than I was! Our relationship probably won't go anywhere but my experience just showed me that sometimes the best experiences are experiences that you have no idea what's going to happen, and you just take a leap of faith and, like the Nike commercial commands, just do it!

You should have goals, they are important for your emotional and spiritual growth, but plans, whether they be daily or hourly should be avoided in most situations.

Thanks for reading. Hope this makes a little sense. BTW, I love to hear feedback. If you totally disagree with my opinion don't be scared to let me know. Honestly, I like a little debate every once in a while. It gives way to intellectual growth, and helps open the mind to the fact that everyone is different. Much Love,

~Aspiretodream