This feeling of having no energy is so tiring, it physically hurts to do anything. Even tho i have a lot of physical energy. And this feeling of every single one of my bones feeling so heavy is making me feel like I just don’t want to move. Without feeling lost in my body of nothing. I also feel so tired I could sleep forever but I still can’t seem to get any sleep without the nightmares taking over my brain. This shit sucks. It feels like the end of the world, even tho I know I know it’s not. I just feel like I can’t do anything any more without all of these thoughts of death and all of these feelings that control my body, my brain, my soul, even my thoughts. It feels like I’m no longer myself. All the things I liked to do I no longer have any interest in them. Even just doing this is putting me in so much pain because I used to love writing stories, poems and songs for my friend that loves to sing but I have not done that in a long time. I miss the person that didn’t care about what others thought of her. She was a strong, brave, smart, beautiful, caring, confident, outgoing person. But now that’s just all gone she has disappeared from my eyes. I wish people could know her because she was so good. But sadly she is no longer alive. She died a long time ago trying to fight the monsters in my mind. She was the strong part of me as this part of me is the weak one.
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The Ride Of Your life – George Carlin
mamabear18, , Depression, Child, Weight Loss, 0
The Ride Of Your life – George Carlin (Absolutely Brilliant) This is great no matter how old you are!!...
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Safety in Anonymity
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So I'm finally taking the chance to share what this is like with the universe. Before anyone freaks out,...
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I can feel myself slipping
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So this is what I've come to; watching @Midnight on the DVR while drunk. I haven't posted anything here...
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Fighting a war with the voice in my head
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For years, I tried to avoid the darkness inside of me. I tried to pretend I was okay. I...
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Liberation
xillah, , Depression, Anger, 1
I just deactivated my Facebook account. I've been thinking about doing it for weeks, but I keep thinking of...
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Was this wrong?
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So I'm feeling a little anxious…I did something tonight that I'm not sure about… I put my laundry in...
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The Girl In The Mirror
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I look in the mirror and see a girl, Who is staring back at me. I don't know who...
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Why Today..?
GreenSkies, , Depression, 0
Hi everyone, again. Been a while since i’ve blogged, guess today is fitting to do it, I suppose. I’ve...