Last time I posted on here, I was typing from my house…now I'm typing from my in-law's basement apartment. My husband lost his job in July and since hasn't found any work, so we put the house up for sale and moved into his parents' house. We're in the basement. Granted, we made it look very nice and clean and updated, but still, it's really stressful. His parents are very old and very particular, I have to share the bathroom and kitchen with them, and we have two dogs with us. My dog is big, sick, old, and lunges at everyone who comes into the house, then his mother gets really pissed and I just feel like absolute hell. We're only supposed to be here for 1 year but at the rate things are going as far as my husband finding another job, I'm afraid it may be longer…and I don't know how much longer of this I can take. My OCD is through the roof. When I write e-mails I stare at the computer and it can sometimes take me up to 1 hour to write one e-mail back to my administrator or even a student. Latley I've been so anxious that forming sentances has been a problem. I was talking yo my mother-in-law and couldn't get the words out. I was stuttering! I've began stuttering while talking to people to the point where I have to stop talking, take a breathe and try again. I saw a therapist the other week, but he's not in my insurance…but he does work with me and he't the only therapist I trust at this point. I'm falling behind on all work that has to be done for my own Grad school program and my teaching work. How did this happen!? I'm so riddled with anxiety and sometimes I realize where I am…and I then my heart thuds.