I'm not much of a blogger but when something is really on my mind it does help to write it all out, so here goes.

My youngest son called last night. I knew instantly that there was something wrong. His wife is going into rehab next week for anywhere from 3 to 5 weeks. She has been going to AA for over 3 months and we all thought she was doing very well. Wrong. She has such an addictive personality. She has not drank, that we know of anyway but her father had surgery and had pain pills in the house. He never took any but the pills were out in the open which I guess was too much temptation for her. She has been taking them for a while now. Not sure why no one noticed the pills being gone but whatever. She had an eating disorder years ago which is now also back.

They have a 2 year old son who is so attached to his mommy. She is a fantastic mother. She really is a loving mother and wife. I feel so badly for her and for all of them. My grandson will not adjust well having his mother gone.

My son works so hard. He works 7 days a week in able for them to have a nice home and so his wife can stay home with their son. He is exhausted and worried sick.

I was married over 30 years and then we split up. I was the person who was always there to babysit or do whatever. When we split I had to get away from that life because everything in it reminded me of my ex and me. I moved to Canada where I met my current husband. It is only 5 hours away but at times it feels like it is hundreds of miles. I know my children are all adults but in times like this I feel so guilty. For once in my life I made a choice for just me and I feel guilty everyday of my life. I love my husband and the life I have now but I can't get over the guilt.

I know that my son and daughter in-law have a tough road ahead. I don't know much about addictions but I do know that it is not gonna be easy for either of them. I just do not know how to help them. I will go for a few days to help out even though I can't afford it. I just have no idea how to help other than that.

To make matters worse my ex told my son to leave her. Pack his stuff and take their son and leave. What a gem of a guy he is. My son was so upset that his dad would even suggest that.

I want to call my daughter in-law and tell her how much I love and admire her but I am not sure what else to say.

I just want to fix this for them………………..