I feel trapped by the fear of the process of death. I think suicide should not only be legal but it should also be facillitated. Like euthanasia for mental illness aswell as physical. It’s hard to die and that should be appreciated. I’ve been thinking about the different methods and i couldn’t do any of them. That’s the only reason i’m left on planet earth. I don’t think i have much left in me to give because it’s like a part of me has been stolen. Stolen because i was poisoned a few years ago and the sexual part of me shut down. It’s a very important part you. The sexual part of me has been stolen. i feel like an empty body. What else can you do? creative stuff, listen to music etc. It’s not enough. All i am asking for is death, should death be so hard to get? There should be a service that you can pay for to kill you. Probably such a thing existed in the olden days. i lay in bed all day because theres nothing else i can be bothered to do other than feel the pain of lust of wanting to die but not being able to get it. How hard can it be to die? It can’t be that hard? Why can’t i get cancer or something? All my bills need paid and death would just be so convinient. Sleep is all i have.

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  1. bridgie101 4 years ago

    I had a loveless marriage for 17yrs. No sex. I don’t think it’s the most important part of me. It was horrible at the time but nowadays as I’m older I don’t want to die or anything. I have a lot of other things that interest me. I am not on this planet to achieve anything or please anyone. I’m here to do whatever the heck I want with this one gift given. This life. It could disappear tomorrow. This might be all I get.

    What’s your bucket list. Done anything on it or just focusing on the moment when it’s all crossed off? Why are you not selfish? Why are you so desperate to not be a problem?

    I think you’re fixated on death, an OCD emanation. 😀 The desire for death is an OCD fixation and you can take some OCD medication and let go of it. Then see what else you feel like doing.

    You’re wasting time being miserable. Get the job done and get on with having fun. 🙂

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